Chris Scantleberry

Could you imagine a day where you were to wake up and not one to spend another second playing games? I often would hear people express how they’ve come to a realization that video games were no longer appealing to them. Such a thought used to be amusing to me. “Perish the thought…”, I used to say.

But now it doesn’t seem as amusing anymore. Several weeks ago when I expressed a lack of interest to write reviews and felt really guilty about it… as if I was giving up. And when I lost my job a few weeks ago, had all this “spare time”, most would drown their worries with digital entertainment.

But I couldn’t do that.

Sure I spent time playing Hyper Street Fighter (what a disappointment) and weeks before that, I immersed myself with Brain Age. I had even redeveloped an interest to play Call of Duty. But in the end, it was all short-lived. That’s when I was wondering if something was wrong with me… perhaps I was going through some sort of change… or maybe… just maybe it was a phase.

Suffice it to say, the feeling bugged the hell out of me. As of late, I’d spent LOTS of time on the PC, finding new ways to hack GotSpace with something meaningful and could offer a significant purpose. All the while, I’d remain focus on keeping the content end updated with new content. But was I gaming? Not really. When Dead Rising, one of the newest sensations to hit the 360 community was released, I wasn’t playing it (I was broke anyways, but that’s beside the point). Texas Hold ‘Em just came out, and much to my surprise… a LOT of people seemed to be digging the game. I wasn’t playing that either. And then there was my DS Lite which I picked up on launch day and as of late, it’s getting more love and attention from my fiance.

Clearly, SOMETHING must be wrong with me.

One member on GN said that perhaps I could just be looking to find more interesting things to do with my time. Hm, now there was a thought that hadn’t come across my mind. The thing is, I can’t imagine me just giving up on what I’ve started here…. to give up gaming altogether. But I figure that these recent waves of inactivity could all be a culmination from frustrations of things that I’d like to see developed with the site; the recent dismissal from my previous employer; and just finding other interests to keep me entertained. Oh… and it’s also summer — that’s especially depressing with the unfortunate drought of OMGtastic game releases.

I realize that your life can’t be exciting every waking moment of your life… but I’d hate to see my life dissolve with any purpose.

Anyways, sorry if this rant doesn’t make too much sense — usually I like things to be structured a bit better, but I just wanted to get it off my chest.